I need to get focussed and get my shit together and be strong. I'm wallowing in whiny shit and worrying and fretting and stressed out about nothing. It feels like I'm broken and...
my brain isn't working right. I feel changed and wrong and angry and like a terrible person. I'm throwing away my boyfriend and pulling away for no reason. I'm sad when I'm with my kids and stare out into space and snap at them. I need to pull my shit together
Deep seated and hate to go down the rabbit hole of looking back at my childhood but my parents are messed up but I grew up and that's it. It could have been worse. No issues with...(more)6-15-2016 6:09am
wt and I'm doing ok (taking care and supporting my kids) but I feel like I'm losing it. I know I have self hate and doubt - it is pointed out to me on occasion. I'm hard on myself.
I used to drink a lot (after I graduated college and felt like I couldn't make myself go in the direction I wanted to go in - it was a way to distract myself). That was how I...(more)6-15-2016 6:14am
ended up marrying my exdh. That was all we did together was drink. He continued and I stopped. I wanted to get real and I did. Now I rarely drink and don't like it when I do although a piece of me wishes I could escape to that place sometimes
^^^ not sure what is causing this recently. Maybe it's bc I have no outlet. I used to work out but haven't been able to do that. I used to see my boyfriend sometimes (a few times...(more)6-15-2016 6:12am
a month) but we haven't been able to see each other. It's strange but I feel lonely and unattached and scattered. I'm trying to get stuff done and doing a good job at that. I'm feeling anxious bc my kids are going away for a week and that upsets me and I'm sure this is a big part of it